by Willijah Rose
On May 15, 2017, I woke up at 6 AM to get my daughter ready for school – but this Monday morning felt different. Little did I know that this day would change my life forever. I peeked into my daughter’s room and found her light on but no Bianca – I went downstairs to check the bathroom, and the rest of the house, but still no Bianca. A feeling of panic and dread washed over me as I began to think that, maybe, for the first time, my daughter Bianca had snuck-out during the night and that something awful has happened.
I went back to her room, to check around, and that’s when I saw her. I saw her standing in the shadows of the deepest part of her closet – her back was facing me. She appeared to be standing – fearfully I said: “Bianca turn around – What are you doing in the closet?”
When I didn’t get a response – I started screaming and went over to her to see what I had feared. She wasn’t standing – she was hanging. Cold.. stiff … and gone. My 15-year-old daughter Bianca Rose Capri had taken her life.
As you can imagine, following this tragedy, my life has never been the same. I feel as though my soul left with her that day. I have been living in constant despair and sadness, my life a blur. Losing a child is the worst pain imaginable; losing a child to suicide just adds even more intensity to the pain. My entire life has been spent raising and protecting my children – I never for a second thought I would have to protect my child from herself. My faith, my other children and my family are what carry me through. It’s only through God’s mercy and grace that I am able to carry on.
After the devastating loss of Bianca Rose Capri, Bianca’s family initially discussed starting an annual race in Bianca’s honor. After some research and discussions, the family decided they wanted to have a bigger impact in spreading suicide awareness by starting a nonprofit.
January – June 2018
The family set a goal to be incorporated by May 2019 and used this time to brainstorm their plans for the Bee Rose Foundation. They worked with thINCubator, where they discussed ideas and all of the things they would like to see come to life. During this time Bee Rose created a Go Fund Me and put together several videos to support its mission.
July – September 2018
With the help of friends and family, Bee Rose had its first fundraising event. The funds were raised to help fund the start-up of Bee Rose. Following this event, Bee Rose participated in the Out of the Darkness Walk and received a donation from The Lions Club of Utica.
October – December 2018
Prior to continuing its journey to obtain its 501c3 status; Bee Rose did consider the option of obtaining a Fiscal Sponsorship. It applied in October and received a rejection notice in January 2019.
January 2019 – Current
After the rejection and other setbacks, Bee Rose decided to continue pursuing its original goal. It has completed its incorporation status and is now moving forward with getting all of the pieces to complete the puzzle. Bee Rose is looking forward to bringing its mission and vision to life. For now, stay tuned.
Bee Friends/Bee the Voice
A program focused on empowering young people to their stories and uplift and praise one another
A program designed to empower children/families to do local/global community/mission work – the goal of this program is to teach children more about themselves, their purpose, humility and what it means to be a good servant
We are working on educational programs and workshops & partnering up with local medical mental health professionals
For more information, visit: www.beerosefoundation.org